Monthly Archives: October 2012

Answering Questions

If you could move anywhere in the world tomorrow where would you go? Why?

Other universe haha. Or just go to new zealand become a pig farmer lol. Such a dreamer.. Sigh..


If you had unlimited funds and never had to work again, what would you spend your life doing?

I’ll be a savior, make poverty just a history. And tell the world “Shame on your (imaginary) god!”

Dancing With a Tornado

Dancing in the rain are way to mainstream, now I’m dancing with a tornado in my brain


I open my eyes, I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how, I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain, And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me, I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on, As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life, I just wanna scream

Everybody’s screaming, I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge, I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered, And I can’t explain what happened

– untitled –

simple plan

I’ll See You Soon – Nobuo Uematsu

Another my fav! Suteki Da Ne in English.. This song really make me remember when Tidus gone, so saaad saaaad sceneeeee.. X(

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Melodies of Life – Nobuo Uematsu

I Love this song! Bring back old memories when I was a gamer..

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Teddy’s Enlightment

Everyday Teddy wake up in the morning, He has the same question.. Life must be something more than this.. *sigh..

Where I can find the answers? Who am I? Am I just a doll?

Life feels like prison

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Mimpi Kekosongan Mimpi

Antara terang dan gelap, antara siang dan malam, antara hitam dan putih, peperangan abadi terjadi pada semesta.
Bergulir dan terhempas, anak-anak langit dan anak-anak samudra.
Menyatu dalam pertarungan membukakan jejak gerbang menuju kesempurnaan.

Cahaya menerobos kehampaan langit. Menembus awan tipis, menghujam lensa mataku.
Mata ini baru saja menelan bintang.

Sorot jutaan tahun cahaya, mendobrak langit. Menghantam bumi.
Mataku baru saja menangkap benda berumur jutaan tahun. *)

Gugusan awan bergandengan di langit begitu indah, seperti gula-gula kapas dalam mimpiku. Mimpi berjalan dalam gelap bertaburan bintang, langit yang begitu luas sehingga menyesakkan. Aku ingin seperti angin, terbang bebas dan tak terlihat mungkin aku bisa menyentuh gumpalan gugusan awan dan meraih bintangku, atau aku bisa segera berpulang kembali mejadi partikel-partikel bintang tempat yang selama ini menghantui pikiran ini. Semakin jauh aku mencari, semakin aku tenggelam dalam kegelapan, belenggu ini seolah tidak dapat aku lepaskan. Aku sendirian, langit malam adalah sahabat terbaikku, karena dalam gelap aku bisa melihat jelas bintang-bintang itu.

Tawa, kebahagiaan, pesta pora, semua ini seperti lelucon permainan keangkuhan. Aku ingin keluar, keluar dari semua ini, melepaskan rantai yang seolah mengikat pada pergelangan kaki ini.

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Just Asked

My most asked question lately to my friend is, one word

no one have the answer

To Find Someone

To find someone you can feel a strong connection on intelligence, emotional, physical, and even spiritual levels are pretty rare these days. – @catwomanizer

Very rare and not gonna happen twice..

A Real Science of Mind


In recent years popular science writing has bombarded us with titillating reports of discoveries of the brain’s psychological prowess.  Such reports invade even introductory patter in biology and psychology.  We are told that the brain — or some area of it sees, decides, reasons, knows, emotes, is altruistic/egotistical, or wants to make love.  For example, a recent article reports a researcher’s “looking at love, quite literally, with the aid of an MRI machine.”  One wonders whether lovemaking is to occur between two brains, or between a brain and a human being.

There are three things wrong with this talk.

First, it provides little insight into psychological phenomena.  Often the discoveries amount to finding stronger activation in some area of the brain when a psychological phenomenon occurs.  As if it is news that the brain is not dormant during psychological activity!  The reported neuroscience is often descriptive rather than explanatory.  Experiments have shown that neurobabble produces the illusion of understanding.  But little of it is sufficiently detailed to aid, much less provide, psychological explanation.

The idea that the neural can replace the psychological is the same idea that led to thinking that all psychological ills can be cured with drugs.

Second, brains-in-love talk conflates levels of explanation.  Neurobabble piques interest in science, but obscures how science works.  Individuals see, know, and want to make love.  Brains don’t.  Those things are psychological — not, in any evident way, neural.  Brain activity is necessary for psychological phenomena, but its relation to them is complex.

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The Probabilistic Mind

Human brains evolved to deal with doubt

Humans live in a world of uncertainty. A shadowy figure on the sidewalk ahead could be a friend or a mugger. By flooring your car’s accelerator, you might beat the train to the intersection, or maybe not. Last week’s leftover kung pao chicken could bring another night of gustatory delight or gut agony.

People’s paltry senses can’t always capture what’s real. Luckily, though, the human brain is pretty good at playing the odds. Thanks to the brain’s intuitive grasp of probabilities, it can handle imperfect information with aplomb.

“Instead of trying to come up with an answer to a question, the brain tries to come up with a probability that a particular answer is correct,” says Alexandre Pouget of the University of Rochester in New York and the University of Geneva in Switzerland. The range of possible outcomes then guides the body’s actions.

A probability-based brain offers a huge advantage in an uncertain world. In mere seconds, the brain can solve (or at least offer a good guess for) a problem that would take a computer an eternity to figure out — such as whether to greet the approaching stranger with pepper spray or a hug.

A growing number of studies are illuminating how this certitude-eschewing approach works, and how powerful it can be. Principles of probability, researchers are finding, may guide basic visual abilities, such as estimating the tilt of lines or finding targets hidden amid distractions. Other behaviors, and even simple math, may depend on similar number crunching, some scientists think.

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“Spirituality is intensely personal; religion is institutional.” Dean Hamer

“In order to survive, you have to organize yourselves into a culture.” Wilson

I’m On My Way

I will laugh at my journey, cry for the each moments and love it semi-faithfully through the best of appeals and the worse of appeals.

I will keep walking even when the wings of death scatter my days, I will keep running even in our silent memory, but let there be spaces in our togetherness.

Loving what I know, trusting what I do not know yet, in all the ways that life may find us.

I will cherish each friendship, I’ve given you my hand to hold through our journey ’til we find our star.

I will never give up today, tomorrow and ’til the end of my life sentence, until the stars grow cold and the light lose its shine, until part of me becomes one with the universe.

Nothing But Pitiless Indifference

“ After sleeping through a hundred million centuries we have finally opened our eyes on a sumptuous planet, sparkling with color, bountiful with life. Within decades we must close our eyes again. Isn’t it a noble, an enlightened way of spending our brief time in the sun, to work at understanding the universe and how we have come to wake up in it? This is how I answer when I am asked—as I am surprisingly often—why I bother to get up in the mornings.”

“The total amount of suffering per year in the natural world is beyond all decent contemplation. During the minute that it takes me to compose this sentence, thousands of animals are being eaten alive, many others are running for their lives, whimpering with fear, others are slowly being devoured from within by rasping parasites, thousands of all kinds are dying of starvation, thirst, and disease. It must be so. If there ever is a time of plenty, this very fact will automatically lead to an increase in the population until the natural state of starvation and misery is restored. In a universe of electrons and selfish genes, blind physical forces and genetic replication, some people are going to get hurt, other people are going to get lucky, and you won’t find any rhyme or reason in it, nor any justice. The universe that we observe has precisely the properties we should expect if there is, at bottom, no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but pitiless indifference.”

Richard Dawkins, River Out Of Eden: A Darwinian View Of Life

In Love with Your Mind

It’s beautiful when you find someone that is in love with your mind. Someone that wants to undress your conscience and make love to your thoughts. Someone that wants to watch you slowly take down all the walls you’ve built up around your mind and let them inside. – Tumblr Quote

Ilusi Kesadaran

What if your consciousness are not conscious at all?

Manusia selalu merasa punya kontrol atas dirinya sendiri, memiliki kesadaran dan menganggap diri mahluk yang berbeda dari binatang. Bagaimana jika kontrol dan kesadaran tersebut tidak nyata? Beberapa kepercayaan mengagungkan kesadaran sebagai point utama dalam diri mereka sebagai manusia, sekaligus untuk merasa diri lebih sadar dari orang lain. Kesadaran mengacu pada kondisi sadar, dimana kita mengingat, menyadari keberadaan diri sendiri dan lingkungan sekitar, mengontrol diri sepenuhnya. Dalam beberapa kepercayaan bahkan mengukur membagi tingkat kesadaran dalam level yang berbeda-beda. Semakin tinggi tingkat kesadaran seseorang maka semakin mulia atau semakin bijaklah dia. Pada akhirnya ini semua kembali sebagai alat pemuasan diri manusia untuk merasa berbeda, dan kesadaran ini kembali menjadi obyek yang memuakan.

Dalam beberapa studi mengenai apa yang disebut kesadaran, beberapa ahli berpendapat kalau kesadaran hanyalah ilusi manusia belaka, kesadaran yang diagungkan bukanlah kontrol diri manusia, melainkan fragment imajiner dari visualisasi subyektif seseorang. Richard Dawkins terang-terangan mengatakan “consciousness is an illusions” dalam bukunya God’s Delusion. Susan Blackmore seorang psikologis menuliskan dalam artikenya berjudul “The Grand Illusion of Consciousness” yang dipublish oleh Skeptics Society mengatakan:

Different strands of research on the senses over the past decade suggest that the brave cognitive scientists, psychologists and neuroscientists who dare to tackle the problem of consciousness are chasing after the wrong thing. If consciousness seems to be a continuous stream of rich and detailed sights, sounds, feelings and thoughts, then I suggest this is the illusion.

First we must be clear what is meant by the term “illusion”. To say that consciousness is an illusion is not to say that it doesn’t exist, but that it is not what it seems to be―more like a mirage or a visual illusion. And if consciousness is not what it seems, no wonder it’s proving such a mystery. (The Grand Illusion: Why consciousness exists only when you look for it)

Apa yang dikatakan sebagai kesadaran hanya berdasarkan subjektifitas pribadi. Sebagian besar dari proses yang terjadi pada otak manusia bukanlah bentuk kesadaran. Melainkan proses dari otak manusia yang menciptakan ilusi kesadaran. Bagaimana manusia membanggakan kesadaran jika kesadaran itu hanyalah tipuan otak. Who’s really in control? You or your brain?

Referensi untuk dibaca lainnya:

– Daniel Dannett di Ted:

– The brain… it makes you think. Doesn’t it?


if you were to read a cardiology book to learn how your heart pumps, would you feel less alive and more despondently mechanical? I wouldn’t. Understanding the details of our own biological processes does not diminish the awe, it enhances it. Like flowers, brains are more beautiful when you can glimpse the vast, intricate, exotic mechanisms behind them. – David Eagleman